Patterns of Light

From his book Dark Night, Early Dawn is Chistopher Bache’s report of a synthesis of several incredible high-dose L sessions wherein he is shown the beginnings of creation and the future evolution of humanity’s consciousness:

“When I moved beyond the cleansing portion of the session, I was met by a large assembly of beings who appeared to have been called to participate in today’s events. They had the feeling-tone of being master shamans. Under their watchful eye I was escorted to an arena where a day of disclosure had been planned. What “I” was at this point is difficult to describe. The hours of painful cleansing had already shattered my egoic reality and left me in an extremely porous transpersonal state. As we approached the arena, the procession was stopped at regular intervals and interrogated. In order to continue, one had to demonstrate one’s knowledge of the inner workings of the universe. I was surprised to find that I appeared to possess the required knowledge, as I was always passed along. With each checkpoint, my experiential reality changed dramatically as deeper and deeper modes of archetypal experience of incalculable age and expanse opened. Eventually spacetime reality was left behind entirely, and I found myself “alone” in a condition that was seemingly without boundaries of either time or space, soaking in the bliss and clarity of transcendence.

I then learned that I was going to be shown a portion of the larger plan for the human species. As preposterous as this suggestion may sound to ordinary consciousness, in my current state it seemed entirely feasible. I had no time to debate these matters, for suddenly something opened and I was drawn into an even more refined and concentrated reality that felt to be the power and intelligence driving evolution itself. I entered into what for want of a better image could be described as a vast, concentrated “stream” underlying physical existence, and this stream seemed to be the formative intent of the Creator Itself. I dissolved completely into this stream and became one with it. The following experiences emerged while I was in this state.

I was first taken back to the primordial beginning before creation and there experienced human evolution in the context of a larger cosmic agenda. Suddenly I was overwhelmed by the most extraordinary Love, a love unlike anything I had ever encountered before. It was a romantic love, cosmic in scope and intensity. As I stabilized under this amorous assault, I began to remember a romance from deep within my history. An ancient love, a divine love of unbelievable proportions. I was a Cosmic Being being loved by another Cosmic Being. Though at one level I had never been separated from my Lover, at another level we had been separated for billions of years, and my return was rekindling our ancient love.

The pieces were hard to catch. Creation seemed to be a reality that had come forth from the dynamic relation between two Cosmic Beings, which had themselves emerged from a more fundamental Primal Unity. One being, who felt more like a He, had remained fully conscious outside of matter while the other had plunged Herself into the task of creating the material dimension, knowing in advance that She would lose Her self-awareness in this work and become unconscious of Her true reality for billions of years. She had voluntarily submitted to this long and painful exile in order to create the raw substance of physical life that would in time become transparent to divine intention as matter evolved into full self-awareness. This work was largely complete, the self-imposed exile was coming to an end, and the Lovers were being reunited at long last.

The magnitude of the Love that lay at the font of creation was beyond description. To awaken to this Love was to remember a primordial decision that I had somehow participated in. It was part of my spiritual genetic makeup, something I had inherited along with everything else that I had not understood about my life. Remembering choices made before matter and time even existed, I reconnected with the Divine Love that had inspired these choices. This experience completely shattered my heart, and I wept deeply.

From this perspective, I experienced all the suffering that humanity had endured as taking place not outside this Love but inside it. I realized that all the suffering inherent in evolution was noble beyond words. It was all part of a cosmic plan that had been entered into freely by all participants, however unconscious of this fact we had become along the way. The nobility of great suffering voluntarily shouldered in the name of Divine Love, suffering that would stretch across millions of years, suffering that would become so utterly inscrutable that it would be used as evidence that the universe itself was devoid of compassion, this was the nobility of humanity’s gift to the Creator. All of the suffering that humanity had endured and would continue to endure, especially the suffering of forgetfulness itself, was part of a consciously chosen creative process, a process that had not yet come to full fruition.

I saw that out of the seething desires of history, out of the violent conflicts and the scheming of individuals and nations, there was now driving forward a new awareness in human consciousness. Its birth in us no less difficult or violent than the birth of a new continent through volcanic upheaval. It drives upward from the floor of our being, requiring a transposition of everything that has gone before to make room for its new organizational patterns.

The great difficulty I have is describing the enormity of what is being birthed. The true focus of this creative process is not individuals but all humanity. It is actually trying to reawaken the entire species. What is emerging is a consciousness of unprecedented proportions, the entire human species integrated into a unified field of awareness. The species reconnected with its Fundamental Nature. Our thoughts tuned to Source Consciousness. Having moved beyond linear time into “deep time,” I experienced this both as a projected destiny and also as a realized actuality. It was simultaneously something to be accomplished and something already accomplished. This quantum jump in our evolutionary status precipitated a wholesale reorganization of global culture. It signaled a turning point that would forever divide the human story into the before and after of THE GREAT AWAKENING.

I saw humanity climbing out of a valley and just ahead, on the other side of the mountain peak and beyond our present sight, was a brilliant, sun-drenched world that was about to break over us. The time frame was enormous. After millions of years of struggle and ascent, we were poised on the brink of a sunrise that would forever change the conditions of life on this planet. All current structures would quickly become irrelevant. All truths would quickly be rendered passe. Truly a new epoch was dawning. The lives of everyone living on the edge of this pivotal time in history had been helping to bring about this global shift.

As I witnessed this scene, I saw that though we did not know the deep future at a personal level, there was a more encompassing level of awareness that could see it very clearly. This was a deeply moving and clarifying experience. Just as we ask our children to do all sorts of difficult tasks that they do not understand yet that we know will be important to their future, there was likewise a “parental intelligence” that had set a task for humanity knowing what was just around the corner for it. We individual humans could not see what was coming and so did not understand why things were the way they were. Yet isolated from the future, the present makes absolutely no sense. To be ignorant of the future would to be functionally blind, and our species is not blind. There is an intelligence within it, guiding it, that knows the future and is preparing us for it as systematically as we prepare our homes for the changes of the seasons.

I could not see the specifics of what the future held. What I experienced was overwhelming light and bliss, and though these may sound disappointingly vague, they in fact revealed more to me than any details possibly could. I knew the brilliant light to be the radiance of enlightenment and the bliss was the joy of liberation. The human species was poised on the brink of a profound and inclusive spiritual awakening.

From this perspective I saw that our culture’s scientific “knowledge” about the origin of life was profoundly incomplete in two respects. First, our materialistic understanding of the actual mechanism of evolution is pitifully incomplete, and second, we have been basing our interpretations on what has emerged just up to this point in time, ignoring the obvious fact that we have seen only the early scenes of a much larger play. Imagine someone from antiquity who was completely ignorant of cars observing the early stations of an automobile assembly line and trying to comprehend what was being built. We simply see too little to guess what is coming and therefore do not properly understand what has gone before. The depth of our ignorance is measured by our conviction that our universe has been assembled by accident. In being given glimpses of the future, in touching the edges of the Creator’s intent, I saw that evolution was indeed no accident but a creative act of supreme brilliance and that humanity was being taken across a threshold that would change it forever.

I then moved deeper into the unified field of existence and experienced the dynamics of humanity’s awakening as movements initiated and orchestrated by a single, integrating Intelligence. Previously my frame of reference for understanding these processes had been individual human beings, and the themes of individual evolution are the skillful exercise of free will over vast epochs of time. Now I was drawn into a superordinate level of reality that revealed a deeper organizational pattern, a pattern that paradoxically did not contradict the reality of individual agency. From this perspective, I experienced the evolution of our species as the systematic growth of a Single Organism, a unified and unifying Being that all of us were parts of. The subtlety of the cooperation of the parts with the whole was extraordinary. Nothing in our theological or philosophical systems does justice to the facts. To experience the incredible diversity of our species as a single unified field made many events clearer. New patterns sprang into view and the patterns made transparent sense.

What I “saw” was that the unified field was moving decisively and precipitously to become more aware of itself in spacetime. Whereas previously it had existed as an extended fabric of being, largely unconscious of itself at the physical level, it was now waking itself up. Visually this took the form of energy coming together in swift, contractive spasm that created bright flashes of awareness. I repeatedly saw extended webs of energy suddenly contract and explode in brilliant flashes. In the past these flashes had not endured long and had been swallowed by the inertia of the collective unconscious of our species. Now, however, the flashes were beginning to hold their own. Not only were they not dissolving, but they were beginning to connect with other flashes occurring around the planet.

The next theme was that of purification. When an organism is called upon from within to become more conscious, it must first cleanse itself of the psychological by-products of living at its lower level of awareness. It must bring forward the residue of its past and purge that residue from the system in order to lay the foundation for a more refined level of operation. Our species was doing this in a wholesale manner and with great determination by cyrstallizing within itself generations that embodied this legacy. What I had previously seen simply as individuals reincarnating in order to clear individual karma, I know experienced as a highly centralized decision to cleanse the human mindfield of its collective karmic legacy in order to prepare humanity for what is coming. It was the coordinated exercise of the self-evolution of the species as a whole. At a deeper level it was the deliberate movement of the Divine Being that was evolving Itself through the experiences of our species. All our individual histories were expressions of this Being’s larger history, our individual struggles were aspects of Its larger struggle. The process was so beautiful and so elegant that it swept me into a deep ecstasy that almost took me beyond my capacity to maintain coherence. It was not a vision but an experience of the reality itself.

From the center of this experience, it seemed to be the case that our current generation had been deliberately karmically configured to precipitate an intense cycle of collective purification. The poisons of humanity’s collective past were being brought to the surface in us, and in transforming these poisons in our individual lives, we were making it possible for divine awareness to enter more deeply into future generations. We had volunteered for this role for both our personal benefit and the collective good. We were cells in a superorganism intent on rapid change. As such we were heavy with both the burdens of our collective past the promise of our collective future. I saw that this century formed something of a watershed into which the karmic streams of history were flowing, and I knew that as this process came to fruition, our future condition as a species would be beyond anything we might project from our current state of fragmentation.

It is difficult to describe the jarring combination of emotions these insights stirred in me. On the one hand, I was deeply disturbed by the decisive and almost impersonal manner in which this transition was being effected. To experience entire generations of human beings as expressions of a larger evolutionary pivot was absolutely devastating. The entire process had the ruthlessness of Kali the destroyer, mercilessly cutting away the old to make way for the new. On the other hand, I also felt an exquisite tenderness coming from the Creator, who experienced with us every pain we had taken upon ourselves. Humans were so precious to the Creator that not a single ounce of pain, not a single tear was was wasted. (ed.: Italics mine.) The depth of that divine care so moved me that no sacrifice seemed too large or unreasonable. Moreover, I could see that the future we were creating was a future that we ourselves would participate in through future incarnations. We were doing this for God, for others, and also for ourselves.

Eventually the multiplicity of perspectives from which this transition could be experienced became so overwhelming that it completely shattered me, and I exploded into a frame of reference that included all these levels. The remainder of the session was spent in this state of expanded, integrated plurality. The theme became the experience of “no-self.” I experienced my work in the sessions as being not breaking through the shell of anything real (the death of a “self”) but as the simple restoration of an open, inclusive wholeness that was and always had been the true reality. All else is mistaken illusion. For a short time the illusion was suspended and I experienced my life as pure process, a rippling of an expansive field of consciousness that supported endless ripples. What a freedom of movement! What contentment in this spacious emptiness! How wonderful must be the experience of those who have stabilized this freedom.

These experiences reached beyond the ripple that was “me” into the morphic field of the species. It is difficult to describe this process because it was largely devoid of cognitive content, and I only began to grasp what was happening retrospectively. My frame of reference was not the usual self/surround polarity but the seamless fabric of unified existence, and yet there was a subtle agency operating that pre-supposed my individual historical existence as well. As best as I can put into words what was happening, it is this.

Just as my previous work had mediated the experience of collective anguish out of the collective field, my current task now seemed to be to mediate the experience of no-self into the collective surround. I experienced this primarily in terms of a flow of energy moving through me into the species-mind. To the extent that this flow took cognitive form at all, it took the form of becoming comfortable with the loss of boundaries. This had many aspects to it–being comfortable surrendering the boundaries of race, the boundaries of socioeconomic distinctions, the boundaries of nationality, the boundaries of religion. Wherever we had drawn boundaries around ourselves in history, there was fear. I seemed to be mediating a calming energy that encouraged the dissolving of these boundaries and the softening of these fears. This went on for a very long time as boundary after boundary fell to a social melding. Soothing energies moved through me and reached into the human field, making it a bit easier for persons to relax and yield to the flow of historical events that were challenging and dissolving the unreal divisions humanity had drawn upon itself. Together we were paving the way for a future that was radically unlike the present.

There is a social awakening coming, a time when we will have dropped our attempt to live in the atomized cells of our historical past and will have appropriated to live the truth of our inclusive nature. Everything we are currently undergoing both privately and collectively is paving the way for this future. The net result of these many experiences was to focus me on the question, “How can the entire species be awakened? What would it take for the whole of humanity to make this quantum jump in awareness?” Though I had seen that this awakening was our immediate historical task, I had not seen how it would be accomplished.”

I send my love and gratitude to Bache for diving in deep and sharing his resultant cosmic insights in his excellent book. Artwork courtesy of Flickr user Eddi 07-http://www.flickr.com/photos/spiritual_marketplace/3257867982/. Peace to all on this cosmic love adventure!